It's a smart and introspective read, and I especially enjoy that you adopt an author's voice of curiosity and asking questions. My own experience tells me that there is such a thing as "female gaze" and I can vouch that some of us men do have similar thoughts to these. Though I think it is neither as all-pervasive nor as internalized. Or part of patriarchal entitlement and rampant objectification, for that matter. Thank you for sharing! I hope you publish more of your writing.